I have seen a certain type of people who I can only define as “powerful”. I mean this in an “energy” way; they are intense, for example in their emotions, desires, expressions, or simply the sense of “presence” which they give off. “Powerful” people have the potential to create what they desire in life with great force and efficacy. However, when someone hasn’t come to terms with their own power, it is just as likely to work against them.
“Power” is not necessarily explosive in nature. I’ve seen some energies that are very gentle, very nurturing, but at the same time very Powerful. Think Mother Teresa*. So understand that I am using the word in a very specific way in this article, and it may not mean what you necessarily expect from this word.
*Some say Mother Teresa wasn’t so cool; I actually know very little about her, but I know what sort of a person she is in the public perception, and that sense is what I’m trying to communicate here.
I gave “power” as a defining trait of the indigo in How To Tell If You Are Indigo. All indigos have this power. However, I see it more strongly in some than others. So I think it makes sense to talk about it as a separate thing.
Understanding “power” in the context of this writing as this energetic, etheric thing, I want to set out one point: I am extremely powerful. I say this not to brag (more on bragging later), but to make sure you know where I’m coming from.
One psychic called my energy, “Like a mack truck: huge, fast moving, and impossible to stop.”
Another read my energy as like a “supernova”.
And I feel it. In “How To Tell If You Are Indigo”, I said, “I feel like my body is a poor expression of the size I feel – I am MASSIVE. I can take on the world! There is nothing I can’t do!”
And this was before I learnt to control my power very much. Nowadays I am seeing vast shifts in my life due to this power. I believe that I can manifest pretty much anything I desire, and I’m seeing that happen. I’m seeing how I’ve achieved incredible shifts in my wellbeing in a few short years. Most other people would take decades to create these shifts, or they could never create them.
Do you hate me yet? Am I rubbing you the wrong way? If I am, I challenge you to reflect on that feeling.
Society Teaching Us To Be Powerless
I’ve seen is that society teaches us to punish each other for being powerful. So if someone makes a clear expression of their power like I have done – or even of their skill in one thing or another – other humans will almost automatically express disapproval and accuse them of being “arrogant”.
That affected me for the longest time. I was so scared of admitting my own power, so scared of seeing it, so scared of coming to terms with it. When I was told I was indigo, my first reaction was to reject the idea – I didn’t want to be somehow “better” than others!
But this is not serving us. We need to be able to see our own power to be able to use it. We need to be able to use our power to be able to serve the world. And if we don’t see our own power, it will almost inevitably rebound against us.
Power And The Law Of Attraction
I see this in those indigo souls who become so heartbreakingly lost. They get sick, hurt, struggle with depression, addictions, aimlessness. If only they knew that it was their own power that was creating this, and that that same power could recreate their lives just as fast!
Maybe this sounds like the Law of Attraction. I guess it is, but forgive me for not rehashing Abraham-Hicks here. I discovered this stuff through intuition and practice, and in some ways I find that the most common LOA frameworks are rather misleading, at least for me.
So in LOA terms, a “powerful” person is able to manifest more easily, and if they don’t control what they manifest, they manifest negative experiences.
I don’t advocate “controlling your thoughts” in order to manifest better. That has never felt right for me. For me, manifesting has been a matter of coming to terms with my power, and from there simply using it in the same instinctive, inexplicable way that you move your arm or bat your eyelids.
Rather than a lack of thought control, I see the problem with powerful people who manifest bad things being a lack of grounding, not being in their body, not being in their aura, not being in their power. If they are not in their power, that power will fly out of them unchecked, energising whatever it comes across.
Your Own Power Working Against You
As you can imagine, this creates rather a chaotic life. The wildly expressed energy manifests intense situations of all sorts, both good and bad, depending on what its focus becomes. I think it also attracts energy vampires – human or otherwise – who take the opportunity to feed off the energy which the powerful person is so kindly giving away.
Energy vampirisim can be in the form of attacks, put-downs, conflict. Think of what happens when someone annoys you and causes you to shout out at them. You’re sending all your energy at them. They are feeding off it.
A long term abusive relationship can be a form of energy slavery. The vampire with a large appetite will keep hurting their Powerful slave, feeding off the resultant negative energy. A Powerful slave requires a particularly strong negative energy to hold them down, so indigos and similar people can manifest unusually horrible situations like this. The only way out is to stop feeding the vampire and focus your energy on positive outcomes.
So, in general, not controlling one’s own power can cause huge problems.
Addictions And Other Outlets
Often, instead of creating such wild situations, a powerful person will protect themselves by dampening their power. This will usually be in the form of addictions. It can be anything; TV, internet, gaming, obsessions, food, even meditation. Anything, even a good thing, when abused, can be an addiction.
By getting so lost in such things, powerful people find an outlet for their power. It gets safely drained away, rather than exploding and causing damage.
Sometimes a powerful person can even find a constructive thing to discharge their power with. I recommend this, but even that can be an escape from truly knowing your full power and potential.
The Root Of Your Disconnect With Power
So, how do we solve all these issues? How does a powerful person come to terms with their power?
I mentioned grounding. I think this is incredibly important. You need to pull your sense of self downwards, into your body and aura, into the place where your power resides. You need to root it there, and stop it flying out at every opportunity. This will prevent power leaks, and allow most of your power to rest in your body, where it can keep you strong.
But grounding is not the root of the issue. I believe that problems with controlling power involve two things:
1. Being afraid of power; of what people will think if you admitted you were powerful. Afraid of feeling “better” than others. Afraid of wanting to feel “better” than others. Afraid of feeling, or being called, arrogant.
All of these things are aspects of the same issue: that society punishes you for being powerful and expressing power.
2. Not understanding power; believing or hoping or fearing that you are like everyone else. Not having a reference or a model for power. Simply having no way of interpreting it.
How To Connect With Your Power
So let me go into the solutions for these two things.
First, we have to learn to be not afraid of understanding ourselves as powerful.
A good start would be to admit your feelings to yourself. You know that your aura feels big, intense. You know that you have determination, intensity, a powerful will. You know that you could achieve whatever you set your mind to.
That feeling will be more or less clear depending on how well you have already come to terms with your power. Perhaps you only suspect you are powerful. Or perhaps you feel it a bit clearer, but are worried that it’s just ego or wishful thinking.
You’ll feel resistance, of course – but start with identifying the feeling. Take a moment to know you’re not fooling yourself. Take a moment to hear it from me that there are others like you. This is a real thing, and no, not everyone feels like this.
Now, we can start to close in on it.
Your resistance will have to do with fear of being arrogant, fear of being “better” than others, etc. Or perhaps the energy feels too big, bigger than your socially conditioned self image. You haven’t been brought up to see yourself that way.
As time goes by you’ll need to change that self image. You can do that by continuing to close in on your energy and allowing it to change your self image naturally. Get closer to your power and learn how it is a part of you. Let Power reshape your life and let your old identities fall away to accommodate that.
Dealing With The Fear Of Being Arrogant
But before then, tackle the fear of being arrogant.
My own approach when I was learning this was to be basically arrogant on purpose. In other words, I attempted to own my arrogance.
You can see this in some of my old posts, where I was basically struggling aloud with this issue. The public declarations of my persona helped provide support for its new form.
Really, I wasn’t being arrogant. But because at that time talking about my power felt like arrogance, I decided that I was going to just go ahead and be arrogant, if that’s what it took.
Being arrogant on purpose neutralises a lot of what society can do to pressure you into not expressing your power.
For example, normally you might say to someone, “I think I’m powerful”. They would likely shut you down: “Don’t you think you’re getting full of yourself? You’re not better than anyone else you know.”
Well, if you decide to own your arrogance, you could say, pretty much humourously, but still with truth in it, “I’m so frikkin powerful, I’m amazing.” They might try to shut you down, but they’d look dumb, because you’re being so obviously straight and exaggerated with it. If they do call you arrogant, you can say something like, “Yes, I am, so?”. Or else you can try and explain how owning your power doesn’t mean being arrogant, but either way, if you’re unapologetic, it’s pretty hard to affect you.
I struggled with my sort-of-arrogance for a while. Sometimes I would go back to denying my own power, and sometimes I’d overcompensate with true arrogance. But I decided I’d rather be arrogant and offend people than be overly humble and nullify myself. And with this priority in mind I swung the pendulum back and forth until I found an equilibrium.
Come To Terms With What Your Power Means
Do these things – come to perceive and acknowledge your power, and become less affected by the fear of being seen as arrogant. These two things will take you a long way.
As well as this, just come to terms with what your power means. Realise that you’re not going to have a “normal” life. Realise that you are destined for something intense, whether it is conventional “greatness” or a more low-key (but important!) role in serving the world. Realise that your life is never going to be insignificant. It’s either going to be a massive help to the evolution of the world, or a massive loss.
Realise that your life is not entirely your own. You came to this planet with a mission, with gifts to share. Not to share them would be negligent.
So let some of your old dreams – those not in line with this understanding – fall away. If you were planning on being a high school teacher, probably you’ll need to rethink that. If you were planning on being a construction worker, that dream is set to die.
Think bigger. Think not just about what would be good or even great, but what would be best. How best can I serve the world? What goal would be a proper outlet for all my power?
For people brought up thinking they were not powerful, the tendency is to set the bar too low. In my case, at least, I repeatedly found myself resetting the bar a little higher, a little higher. At first I just wanted to be financially free. A big enough goal for a normal person. But my Power needed more than that.
Then I wanted to express my creativity. A good plan too, except I could do more than that. So that goal eventually feel away, or at least became subordinate to my larger goal.
Finally I found an outlet – writing – which gave me practically unlimited room for expansion. And it has been enough to occupy my power for some time.
In the future I expect I will expand even beyond that. But for now this is keeping me in quite a nice space where I can engage all of my Power without needing other outlets for it. (Well, I have the intense work that is a gender transition on the side, too. The combination of these things seems to be occupying me well enough).
By all of this I mean – let your Power reshape your life. As you come to terms with it, learn how your life must change and flow with that. Work out what it really means to be a Powerful person.
Power Is A Gift
In time, after a long process, I came to be in control of my power. Nowadays my aura is mostly contained in my body, rather than flying in all directions outside of it. I normally attract positive social situations and feel incredibly confident in my ability to manifest what I want in my life.
This power is such a gift. Though society would attack me for saying it, I proudly uphold that I believe I am special. I believe that I have a gift, one which I feel strongly drawn to share with others. I believe I have the power to make my life mean something in the course of the awakening of this world.
That’s an inspiring feeling. It’s also scary. But I’d rather face up to this challenge, than waste the power which I was given to share with the world.
In fact, the choice is kind of an illusion. Think about how I “chose” to live as a woman. At the time it seemed a choice. But looking back, there were only two options: be myself, or suffer. And when things are that clear, there doesn’t seem to be a choice at all.
In the same way, embracing your power is not really a “choice”. If you have it, you have it. Either you will continue to ignore it and continue to suffer; or you will embrace it, learn to control it, and use it in your purpose to serve the world.
Hard And Liberating
It’s such a hard thing for me to tell you. It’s such a hard thing to accept. You either have to suffer or become great. (I don’t mean great as in better than others, but great as in large and influential).
Perhaps you want to go back to sleep. Perhaps you think, “Why me?” and just wish you could be a normal person. But you can’t. If you go back to sleep, you’ll keep getting shaken up until you are forced to awaken. If you try to be a normal person, you will fail, and depression and failure in all areas of your life will be your reward.
It does seem hard. But it’s also liberating when you see things this way. You don’t have to struggle with yourself anymore. Once you have clarity, just take the path you need to take. It might not be easy, but it will be worth it.
Powerful people have the ability to help the world so much. I feel such huge senses of loss when I intuit the power of someone who is lost and seems never to be able to get unlost. The world needs them. They are diamonds in the rough.
Most powerful people, I think, never come to terms with their power, and thus never truly give the world their gift. Society scares them away from feeling powerful, and they have no framework for understanding their power in the first place.
We need to learn to break free of society. We need to learn to understand this power and what it means to us.
Find Others Like You
As a final tip, I suggest finding others like you. This will help awaken your power through recognition. Show them this article, and work through your connection with your power together. With social support, perhaps this can be easier.
In closing, I’ll leave you with my article, How To Get Grounded. If you’re powerful, getting grounded will draw you closer to your power. This will help you feel it and give you a chance to come to terms with it.
At last, being grounded and being in control of your power are inseparable. You can’t have one without the other. So you can work on both sides of this equation simultaneously, and hopefully this way you can make some serious shifts in your energy.
If you need more help with this, try getting a counselling session with me. Good luck!