January 30, 2018

A Clean Break

So, lately I’ve been going through some internal growth that is even more intense than usual. As a result of this growth, I’ve begun to feel differently about this blog. It feels not “me” anymore, or not completely resonant with what I want to do. Until such time as I can feel it resonate 100% to continue writing here, I’m going to leave it as it is, and it’s quite likely I’ll just leave it […]
April 23, 2017

My Fifth Trans Birthday

It’s now been five years since I started living as female, despite the role I was born into. There’s not so much to write anymore about the topic. I still have to finish my voice training and hair removal, which are both at a comfortably good stage but need a bit more work. And I still have yet to get genital surgery, and don’t really want to think about how long it will take as […]
April 22, 2017

Welcome Home, Wanderer

My new book, Welcome Home, Wanderer, is now available! This book is essentially a self help guide for those who identify as indigo, crystal, or similar. These people are “aliens on a mission”, intensely idealistic souls who often find it hard to come to terms with the way things work on this planet. As “indigo” is an inexact term, I also encourage use of the term “Wanderer” in my book. You can read more about […]
March 15, 2017

Unpublishing My Book “Stubborn Soul”

After two years, I’m choosing now to unpublish my self published book “Stubborn Soul”. Stubborn Soul was an autobiographical book detailing my harsh and unusual life until I was 18 years old. I suppose my decision might seem strange. Why remove your book, even if it doesn’t sell well, when it doesn’t take energy to maintain and occasionally gives you a bit of money here and there? Such reasoning held me back for some time, […]
March 7, 2017

Choosing The Label “Lesbian” Over Bisexual

I’ve identified with the label bisexual for about six years with different levels of certainty. Sometimes I’ve been very unsure and have strongly entertained the idea that I might be lesbian instead. Sometimes I’ve been relatively comfortable in my identity. I’ve almost always been clear on the fact that I like women more then men, but that wouldn’t necessarily mean I’m not bisexual; bisexual people with preferences either way do exist. Strangely, after my longest […]
April 26, 2016

My Fourth Trans Birthday

Yesterday was my fourth transgender birthday! In other words, it’s been four years since I started living full time as a woman. As I said to a friend recently, the “age” of four seems like a significant one. Perhaps it’s like the age of 18 in cis years. (Yes, we talked tongue-in-cheek about “trans years” and “cis years”). At this age, I’m no longer a beginner in the whole matter of transing. I don’t have too […]
April 23, 2016


I’m still young, as it goes, though at the age of 26 I’m starting to edge out of “totally young” into “woa I’m actually kind of really an adult now” territory. Some of my friends are having babies and stuff. In fact I think I’m technically a step-aunt though I don’t even know the names of my step- nieces and nephews. I’m going to Hell, I know. One of the things about being slightly older […]
September 19, 2015

Personal Update, And The Berlin “Three Meeting Rule”

It’s been more than a month since I last posted so somehow I feel that the best way to ease back into writing would be with a personal update. Some time… I guess a month ago? I was hit by triple misfortune: my landlord gave me an ultimatum to move out, I lost the job I was going to start at the beginning of September, and my handbag was stolen. In that bag was my passport, among […]
June 21, 2015

Goodbye, Tina

A little homage to Tina, a loved one who killed herself some weeks back. In her funeral, a childhood “friend” of hers said that the responsibility for her death came down to her, and her alone. As he said this, he was using her pre-transition name and calling her “he”, the very sort of casual, everyday discrimination which contributed to the conditions that brought about her death. When a trans person dies, the whole of our […]