November 4, 2017

More Tips For Dealing With Suicidal Feelings

The usual disclaimer: if you think your life is in danger, get help. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. That said, I’ve been having some suicidal feelings recently and have taken the opportunity to work with them. I knew I was safe while doing this, firstly because the feelings were not as strong as they have been, and secondly even in my most intensely suicidal moments I’ve had the clarity that I […]
June 18, 2017

Spiritual Parasites

I finally feel ready to write about what I call “spiritual parasites“, or what are more widely known as “Negative Attached Entities (NEAs)”. When I didn’t know what to call them I googled for “spiritual parasites”, so maybe by using this as my title I can help others find this information. Spiritual parasites or negative attached entities are spirits which lodge in your body or aura and attempt to feed off your energy. Many people […]
April 19, 2017

Psychoactive Cacao

This may sound surprising to you but here it is: Cacao can be a drug, and I personally find it to be one of the most useful drugs for personal and spiritual development I’ve ever encountered. The secret is this: for cacao to be a drug, it needs to be raw, something that doesn’t normally happen. Cacao made for food consumption is always treated with heat. Online and in health food stores, you can find […]
March 31, 2016

Water Fasting

I’ve just realised I’ve never written an article about water fasting. I’ve fasted quite a few times in my life, going from single day fasts up to a seven day fast at one point. Water fasting (which I normally just call fasting unless I need to be specific) is so called because you don’t consume anything except for water during the time you fast. The human body can last up to about fifty days on just […]
January 28, 2016

Fear of Being Alone

In a recent post, I detailed a revelation I’d had about my fear of being alone: …my crying stopped suddenly as I had a little revelation. I thought about what I was actually crying about. What I realised was that my reaction was disproportionate to just being upset about being alone. Sure, being alone hurts, but I always get through it. Inevitably there’s a period of being lonely before eventually I find someone(s) to fill the gap […]
January 8, 2016

Social Needs

I haven’t posted in a long time. That’s because my life has been a mess. I’ve had serious problems in my romantic relationship, as well as other forms of instability (financial and in my living situation). I’m blocked as I write this; I’m not sure how much of my relationship problems I should describe. I need a bit of that for context, but what I really want to do in this post is detail the personal […]
December 9, 2015

Healing Anxiety

A week or so ago, I was feeling intense fear and anxiety. This was a result of several things, but most of all that I was running out of money and didn’t know if I could get some more in time to avoid a really horrible situation. In my mind, I had a few fears, which I suppose you could call partly-conscious, because it took a bit of effort to bring them into conscious awareness, […]
October 12, 2015

Accepting Being Fat

My relationship with my weight has evolved quite a bit lately. Recently I checked my weight again for the first time in a few months, and found that it had stabilised. (Actually I had lost a few kilos, for no apparent reason). I think this helped me feel a lot better about my weight, seeing as my biggest issue so far with being fat was that I didn’t know when the weight gain would stop. […]
February 8, 2015

Dealing With Internalised Homophobia

Reminder: I wrote a book and it’s super awesome. Seriously, go check it out. As a bisexual trans woman, it’s kinda funny how I react to my own sexuality. I’m mostly comfortable with my attraction to women, but on some visceral, unreasoned level, being with a man feels gay. Imagine that last word being uttered by a merciless highschooler and intended as the ultimate insult. Now imagine that you’re the most primally insecure childlike part […]