April 23, 2017

My Fifth Trans Birthday

It’s now been five years since I started living as female, despite the role I was born into. There’s not so much to write anymore about the topic. I still have to finish my voice training and hair removal, which are both at a comfortably good stage but need a bit more work. And I still have yet to get genital surgery, and don’t really want to think about how long it will take as […]
April 22, 2017

Welcome Home, Wanderer

My new book, Welcome Home, Wanderer, is now available! This book is essentially a self help guide for those who identify as indigo, crystal, or similar. These people are “aliens on a mission”, intensely idealistic souls who often find it hard to come to terms with the way things work on this planet. As “indigo” is an inexact term, I also encourage use of the term “Wanderer” in my book. You can read more about […]
April 19, 2017

Psychoactive Cacao

This may sound surprising to you but here it is: Cacao can be a drug, and I personally find it to be one of the most useful drugs for personal and spiritual development I’ve ever encountered. The secret is this: for cacao to be a drug, it needs to be raw, something that doesn’t normally happen. Cacao made for food consumption is always treated with heat. Online and in health food stores, you can find […]
March 15, 2017

Unpublishing My Book “Stubborn Soul”

After two years, I’m choosing now to unpublish my self published book “Stubborn Soul”. Stubborn Soul was an autobiographical book detailing my harsh and unusual life until I was 18 years old. I suppose my decision might seem strange. Why remove your book, even if it doesn’t sell well, when it doesn’t take energy to maintain and occasionally gives you a bit of money here and there? Such reasoning held me back for some time, […]
March 7, 2017

Choosing The Label “Lesbian” Over Bisexual

I’ve identified with the label bisexual for about six years with different levels of certainty. Sometimes I’ve been very unsure and have strongly entertained the idea that I might be lesbian instead. Sometimes I’ve been relatively comfortable in my identity. I’ve almost always been clear on the fact that I like women more then men, but that wouldn’t necessarily mean I’m not bisexual; bisexual people with preferences either way do exist. Strangely, after my longest […]
February 26, 2017

Non Violent Self Motivation

I’ve written before about my work developing what I call non violent self motivation. I’ve called it “unjobbing” in the past – a parallel to “unschooling” which refers to a non violent form of parenting – but I think this name is clearer and also has the benefit of not requiring you to understand the term “unschooling”. For those who haven’t read about it before, non violent self motivation means ideally never forcing yourself to […]
February 16, 2017

The Power of Soft Habits

It’s crept up on me, but I seem to have become more healthy: I’m usually having a big fruit smoothie for breakfast every morning, I’m usually swimming once a week, and I usually meditate every day. I’m also now trying to add a new habit to the list: one big salad every day. We still have to see if that one sticks, but I’m hopeful. I know for many people this would not be a […]
January 24, 2017

Eliminating Distractions From Facebook

The night before last, I made a radical change to how I use Facebook, removing distracting elements and focusing it entirely on my real-life social life. Making a change like this may not seem like a big deal, but Facebook had been consuming very large quantities of my time, so the way I relate with it as a tool has a big significance to my life as a whole. Some years back I attempted a […]
January 16, 2017

Anger And Nonviolent Communication

I had a conversation about dealing with anger yesterday and found that my views on the topic have developed, or at least, I seem to be better at explaining them. Interestingly, though I still haven’t read the book Nonviolent Communication, I’ve been told that my philosophy seems to match its ideas closely. I’d like to read it, but I like the idea of writing down my ideas first, so that they are not influenced by […]